LasT paGE of DiaRY

This night is not the usual night.. Though the outlook were as normal..
Holding hands in the taxi.. Ranting about one's stuffs.. She only felt that he's not himself..
But she did not suspect much..

When she was taking her clothes to change... He called.. "Girl.. I have something to tell you"..
Though she could guess it.. She remains her "question mark" face and replied: "What’s that?"...
He said that he was holding her up.. And he can’t be a friend of hers to provide her with happiness..
He doesn't want her to be restricted... He wished that she owns her freedom..
She is still stuck with him.. His appearance definitely troubled him..
He doesn't want her to keep her worries in everything she does... And of course he doesn't want to be her burden..
She was startled with his words.. As she didn't expect he would bear to say it out...
She had thought before.. If there is such a day to come.. She would be the one to break it..

She knew that he was upset.. The feeling could be more sophisticated..
But she can't describe it as he concealed it under an emotionless face..
She wouldn't know the aftermath.. She knows that she will miss him..
In fact she had.. But she know it jolly well that she can't hold on to him when she has uncertainty in her wants and feels...
It's very selfish of her.. Right from the start... She has been a selfish soul...
If she could had be a little firmer... She would hurt him this far...

Days with him were great... A silly boy.. That's what she will always call him..
He had a hunch that she will return to him... She wasn't sure why he had that sense...
But she knew that she would not return to him..

She was just a heart breaker... Always procrastinating and failure to plan..
Believing in happy go lucky... Had neglect that he has great ambitions with her...
But that's just her... She can't or rather she's really afraid to love...
Her strong shield had kept her away from falling real deep for any guys..
She hopes one day there will be someone to break that shield for her...
And she could be brave to love again....